The first was 11yrs ago.


It was my 3rd yr anniversary with Aly.


We were on our way back from our celebration when I got involved in an accident.


We were alright, but I lost a dear friend that night.


At the same time, overseas, my friend had passed away from a murder.


It was a strange feeling and till this day, I still make no sense of this connection.


It’s 2014 now.


I’ve lost another friend on this day, my 13th anniversary with Aly.

A close friend joked that perhaps my getting together with Aly was bad luck.

Funny, yet not so.


It was only yesterday that I sent you off.

Mum asked if I cried.

I replied that I didn’t.


I usually cry at these things… The only time I fought hard to hold back the tears was when I saw Perry, the calm, cool guy I’ve always known was in tears.

Pat and Fai both said the same thing to me when dad passed on, that it’s always the living that hurt and suffer.

I pray for you Perry that you will pull through this period with great strength.



Good times.


From the time we sat back to back in the office, yet chatting on yahoo messenger and me reaching out for those yummy fish balls from Tiong Bahru market which you gladly offered, to the times when you bought breakfast for Justin and me daily.


The many games we played together, from our time at Surfing Bananas, with Acrophobia, Counterstrike, Red Alert and Diablo 2. Good times, good laughter whenever the female Barbarian Sillysleepy is running away from the cows during the cow runs in Diablo.


How silly we were, obsessed with TornCity, with multiple accounts and you logging in for me when I was busy… to running multiple restaurants in Restaurant City on FaceBook. How time flies.


All these yrs, you’ve been a big sister to me despite that you’re only a yr older. Lending a listening ear during my breakups, giving advice when I needed them, taking good care of me all the time.

I’ve always felt like the baby of our clique from Surfing Bananas… that’s all due to your care for me… and connecting me to the rest. You were the one who brought all of us together. I don’t know how things will be from now on.


Grateful times.


When you came so often to keep me company at VivoCity, helping me to run the shop when I had to take a breather. The 2 of us, eating packets of chicken rice with all the different sauces… at the shop. You and me attending the glass jewellery making class and having lunch and Actually chocolate ice cream together after that.


The many things I remember doing with you.


The LMF concert, the crab makan sessions with Perry and Aly, the fish head curry makan sessions with Perry, Pat, Audrey and Claire…. Even though the men were just there for the food and the women for chit chats lol ….


It’s gonna take awhile to get used to not having you around.


I took a short glance at the whatsapp history with you … and the last time I spoke to you… if you were gonna get the new iPhone6. I wished I spoke to you more that day. The long chat history on FaceBook and other platforms … we’ve really chatted alot over the yrs.


When my dad passed on, you gave me strength and brought the people I needed and treasured around me.


The last few days, I’ve just been thinking. Thinking where and how things will be from now on. Without your amazing ability to bring people together… how dull my life would be from now on without you to talk to about anything and everything under the sun, the IT stuff, the food in Hong Kong, the gossips from Hong Kong, the updates about our ex-colleagues, etc…..


The thoughts in my head were all these things which I couldn’t really say out loud because I didn’t know where to begin and where to end.


So much that we’ve been through… and it’s slowly sinking in that I’ve lost a truly dear friend who listened to all my crap all these years and still loved me for who I was.


A part of me doesn’t want to deal with the fact that you’re gone. Perhaps that’s why I was trying to smile, to joke around even when I was sending you off.


I’m gonna miss being wacked by you on the shoulder during our get togethers. I’m gonna miss you Viv.


Thank you for the memories once again… and will pray for your loved ones and big brother Perry too.


We will all stay strong for you.


Web Services, Surfing Bananas

Web Services, Surfing Bananas

It’s been a long long time! :P

Haven’t blogged for a year now? No doubt thanks to Facebook …. it’s so much easier for my friends to stay in touch …. they would see my updates on Facebook and would never have energy to visit my blog lol :P

Anyway … I’m still alive and kicking as you can see… can’t wait to leave Singapore …. stupid weather here has been insane for the past few weeks ….

Can’t wait to cool off in Seoul and Hong Kong ….

Till then…. ta ta! :D

This is interesting ….

What do you guys think?

Super Affiliate Marketing

Always wondered about internet marketing … perhaps it’s time to take the plunge and make some pocket money! ;)

Blogging from my spanking new (not so new by now actually) iPhone 4 … Hee hee

Typing is a chore though … Still yet to get used to it but at least I am finally free from the stupid lag I got all the time from the HTC HD2 … Grrr

Happy now … Finally caved in and able to use the useful car park apps and location based ones …. Not so much for the games unlike the huge majority of iPhone users :p

The new retina display looks fab as well

Arrrgh!!! This really makes me want to go to Korea now!!!

For the life of me … the service is really lacking …

This is the 2nd time already in a few weeks that I’ve got fed up and bought my stuff from elsewhere….

2 different branches, 1 at IMM and now at Compass Pt where the place seems to be understaffed… and whatever remaining staff that they have, they’re really really slow in everything they do.

Do they not see the long queue? Goodness gracious me….

If they don’t get their act together… the place will go down like other fast food joints that have left the market.\

Fast food? Sheesh ….

Applied for Deferment from NS …

Stupid reply I got from them was that work commitment does not constitute valid grounds for deferment.

Can someone tell me then why the hell did they include work commitment under the drop down menu at the deferment page?

They also mentioned that I had to note that I had deferred my NS before.

If each NS man is ONLY allowed to defer his service once or twice in his lifetime, they should have stated it somewhere somehow and highlighted it to me in the very first place.

Talk about crap replies.

Desperately need to replace my Asus P750.

I love the phone, but it’s been screwing up like crazy lately… and I need my phone more than ever for work.

4 different OS to consider…

iphone, android, winmobile and symbian.

I need threaded messenging. I never understood how I survived (back in the old days) with having to go to the inbox and then to the outbox and then back again to read a complete conversation.

I still don’t understand how many can live with it now as well.

Therefore, threaded messenging is a must.

Secondly… will need certain apps to go along with the phone. I will need eWallet on it. So far, only iphone and winmobile has it. I didn’t check for symbian, but I just can’t see myself using symbian as well…

If only the Nokia E52 has threaded messenging as well as an app like eWallet…

Also need apps like currency converter…. metric converters and also MS Office for mobile… need to read excel and all that ….

I would prefer a keypad rather than a QWERTY or on screen input.

But the Samsung Omnia 2 has got a screen keypad which I tried before… although I can’t feel it (sms-ing without looking at the phone with one hand) …. it’s still usable when I look at the phone ;)

The input for the iphone is horrible though. I can never type a proper sentence with it no matter how i try even when I rotate the screen to landscape mode.

Andriod really has got limited apps… something I don’t think i can live with.

Therefore…. I guess winmobile phone still wins at the end of the day.

Question is… which one now?

HTC Touch 2? HTC Touch Diamond 2?

I am waiting for the HTC HD2 to come out… but the thought of waiting till Nov sucks … I need the phone NOW!!!

Samsung Omnia 2? Which one to go for?

The hunt for a replacement phone is driving me nuts!

Oh! and I need one with a decent camera too… my current camera in the phone totally sucks….

This is the result of my run last night…

18 rounds… at the 15th round onwards… my right knee and calf felt like it was going to give way … I had to stop for awhile and massage my leg before continuing on the last 3 rounds as I was targetting at least 7km …

Stupid ipod nano G5 …. nice device… but after jogging and all that … it was covered in sweat… I couldn’t get the thing to stop or pause the workout properly….

Thus the results of this jog last nite… the pace was very slow…

Hope I do better soon… and that my leg wouldn’t act up again :)

I am shutting down the site indefinitely.
I don’t have the time or the drive to continue on this journey.
My life is in shambles and I’m all alone.
I can’t do this anymore.

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ahMao in goldfish bowl aka Singapore, a mao who wishes he was in Hong Kong instead, the food that ahMao eats with his ahMew aka LeMew/Kitty and the boring stuff they do when they are.... bored .... what else?



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